today i found myself thinking about the golden rule, and if it really exists. i don't mean in concept, but in practice.
my whole life i have tried to live by it (failing often - or at least that is my perception on the matter). there are moments when i have been told that i do too much, give too much (of myself, things, efforts, etc), have had my motives or agenda "checked", have been told that my issues must be strong (though i'll give them that, they got it all wrong still), etc.
if we all know this rule - why is it so hard to believe/practice? i mean, i don't do anything that i do with the anticipation or expectation that it will be reciprocated, but for heaven's sake if the rule is:
do unto others as you would have them do unto you - WHY WOULDN'T you try or be... why not? why would we doubt the efforts of love, or hope, of faith, of sincerity? why would we fear it? why would we not offer it?
in these thoughts i grew frustrated - and began to doubt myself. what if i did an experiment of "doing unto others as they do for me"? what would that look like? what would that be like? a cold shutter ran through me - i could do this experiment, but what would it prove? after all, i did make a promise with the universe that i would respect this rule, and honor it as best i may.
my objective is to make myself a better person, by being of service to my family, my loved ones and even people i don't know. i find happiness within me, and by serving i share it. find it (happiness) by providing and giving i expand upon it, and by being trustworthy, by being reliable, by loving and not judging, by showing compassion and fidelity...by being myself and comfortable with it, and allowing the same for others - because it's just what i feel is right.
my world has not been (outside of my family and a handful of soul friendships) comprised of the golden rule, it's been mostly glittery. people have definitely not done unto me what i have for them (and this is not a judgement on capacity, but a simple observation. in as much as i have failed in some situations myself) - now it is time to let go of that and just do. be. give. and then do some more. let go of all thought of self and in that find a refinement of self.
does any of this make sense?, because it's all a bit muddy for me still.
i want to be whole so that i can make more people smile and shine (so powerfully from the inside that it glows outward).
all love,
m
my whole life i have tried to live by it (failing often - or at least that is my perception on the matter). there are moments when i have been told that i do too much, give too much (of myself, things, efforts, etc), have had my motives or agenda "checked", have been told that my issues must be strong (though i'll give them that, they got it all wrong still), etc.
if we all know this rule - why is it so hard to believe/practice? i mean, i don't do anything that i do with the anticipation or expectation that it will be reciprocated, but for heaven's sake if the rule is:
do unto others as you would have them do unto you - WHY WOULDN'T you try or be... why not? why would we doubt the efforts of love, or hope, of faith, of sincerity? why would we fear it? why would we not offer it?
in these thoughts i grew frustrated - and began to doubt myself. what if i did an experiment of "doing unto others as they do for me"? what would that look like? what would that be like? a cold shutter ran through me - i could do this experiment, but what would it prove? after all, i did make a promise with the universe that i would respect this rule, and honor it as best i may.
my objective is to make myself a better person, by being of service to my family, my loved ones and even people i don't know. i find happiness within me, and by serving i share it. find it (happiness) by providing and giving i expand upon it, and by being trustworthy, by being reliable, by loving and not judging, by showing compassion and fidelity...by being myself and comfortable with it, and allowing the same for others - because it's just what i feel is right.
my world has not been (outside of my family and a handful of soul friendships) comprised of the golden rule, it's been mostly glittery. people have definitely not done unto me what i have for them (and this is not a judgement on capacity, but a simple observation. in as much as i have failed in some situations myself) - now it is time to let go of that and just do. be. give. and then do some more. let go of all thought of self and in that find a refinement of self.
does any of this make sense?, because it's all a bit muddy for me still.
i want to be whole so that i can make more people smile and shine (so powerfully from the inside that it glows outward).
all love,
m
1 comments:
some people's capacity to give is much greater than others. you, my love, have been cursed/blessed with the largest capacity i have ever seen.
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