heart(compass)

 

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i recently bruised my left knee deeply and painfully.  it's still a bit black and blue.  tonight i bruised my left forearm - not as bad.  a good friend (tonight) pointed out that in accordance to energy relations this is a manifestation of some trust and relationship issues.  bruised, longlasting....  at first i blew it off - i am now finding merit in it.  you can delete, but until you empty the trash - it's all still there.  with a spirit of joy, i am emptying the trash.  with a spirit of trust i am going to mend the thing i have hope in.
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there is a couple i used to see about two or three times a week during lunch.  they were beautiful - painfully.  they have been married for over thirty years, and there shined a tenderness i can not explain.  a love so deep that it radiated around them.  it was beautiful.  when i saw them - i wanted that.  not something frivilous and fake - i wanted that enduring love.  committed love.  shining.  he passed away not too long ago and today i saw her walking - i wanted to hug her and thank her for showing me that in a marriage.  (my parents have been together for over 35 yrs, but it's something else when i can see something like that in strangers and recognize it).  i wanted to hug her, because of something deep in me was moved.  i didn't.  instead i prayed a little prayer.... 
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we all have a compass inside us.  a sense of direction, a true north.  i love being reminded of mine.  love being able to stand up for what it means for me and to me.  i have a strange sensation that another filtering process is coming up in my life and i am more than okay with it.  i need to re-engage in the meanings of faith and on the eve of the celebration of Christ's birth i am reconfirming my faith in Baha'u'llah and my efforts towards the unity of the faiths of God.
my compass is love.  my compass is faith.  my compass is hope....
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remove the fear from your life.  accept nothing less than awesome.  inspire those around you.  encourage those you speak with.  forgive. 

if you don't stand up for your relationships (any and all of them) - how will you show up?  how will they know.  love is about bridging the distance and creating new continents - it takes effort (while being effortless).  anything less is.....  less.
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dear universe - thank you.
thank you.
thank you.