heart('s place)

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my thoughts have been in more of a dream like state than full awareness - i suppose 11hr work days will do that to you...  work that your heart is not in, that is.
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there's always something in the periphery, a shadow, a flicker of fairy wings, a statue, a face - like i am living in-between worlds, with no full home in either place.  i'd be worried, but my heart is still in my chest and that's the only home i need (for now).
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i had a dream of you, and we were laughing - the way we laugh when we are happy...it was devious of us to defy the universe that way - but i have a sneaky feeling that is why we were created:  to discover new laws in physics that allow us to bend the universe to our will.
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yours are the only hands i want to hold, but you are farther than any man in my life (and strangely/sadly only a twenty minute drive away).
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yours are the only pockets i would ever feel comfortable slipping my hands into, to find the warmth of my own skin mirrored from your skin and that space in between our child like souls play - energizing the atoms and creating love unparallelled.  and, though your hands i have never held, it would be fair to say we have held together continents in that space...
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trying to find deep breaths in world of short ones.  trying to remain constant in a world in fluctuation.  trying to find peace, love and joy in the deeps of myself (like an underground river - prestine).
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i'll find my place - eventually... for here, and now, i am.  and all of me i will give to it.
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blessing and love - m