heart (pause)

happiness does not just happen - it is made.  i am a builder, and now i must take myself to a new level and build better and build stronger.

my self is in bloom and it is time to arise to the honor and station of the nobility that i (and we all) were created.

"O SON OF SPIRIT! I created thee rich, why dost thou bring thyself down to poverty? Noble I made thee, wherewith dost thou abase thyself? Out of the essence of knowledge I gave thee being, why seekest thou enlightenment from anyone beside Me? Out of the clay of love I molded thee, how dost thou busy thyself with another? Turn thy sight unto thyself, that thou mayest find Me standing within thee, mighty, powerful and self-subsisting."

i really can't say what the next step is, or that i will not experience pain or hurt - because for someone like it me it is ever present - but that i know my happiness will be my lodestone.  my faith will bring me home.  my joy will encourage others forwards as well.

we are a sharing society (we were built that way).  i am now learning how to share - even on myself.

i am so grateful to have in my life those that i may turn off with and find peace in.  in this i find myself on fire in growth and reaching new heights.

i am grateful to the moments when i have to be on - it reminds me of how much further i have to go.  

i know we all have our own suffereings, but KNOW that there is light, there is redemption, there is hope (even if there seems to be none).

all love,

m