heart (-skips)

a couple of nights ago i dreamt my left foots got stung by a bee.  (note:  my left foot has been stung by a bee).  i dreamt the bee and i were conversing and i was not afraid and it went ahead and bit me and for a moment my muscles froze.  i was okay.  pain was less than the first experience but it was annoying all the same.  i woke up - still feeling whatever that may now be described as pain - only to giggle to myself:  only i would get twice on the left foot by a bee.

then i giggled thinking my sister would tell me that this has to do with some lesson i learned, then forgot and now was being reminded of.

point taken - imaginary conversations.

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if we spend our moments trying to figure out the past or plan out the future we do loose a bit of the now.  if we spend our time doing something other than that which brings us joy (or some reflection of it) our soul may experience flights of fancy (i think).


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dear bee,
i felt your little sting today, and it was a bit annoying.  and, like last time, it was due to my miscalculation.  sorry you had to die, but i guess i needed to be reminded.  --->>>  let us not expect more than what someone may offer and let us not ever image that, unless it is in clear terms, we are on the same page of the same book with anyone (even ourselves).  ours is to love with detachment, ours is love to love with encouragement, ours is to give without asking for in return, ours is to be and do more - because we are capable.

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having learned my lesson - i need to remove this venom and find ever growing joy.  in that light:

 i was in seattle this last weekend, and a large bit of me was carrying in my heart a dear friend.  she, to me, personifies strength, love, loyalty and compassion (first adjectives that come to mind) and a whole heap of patience.  she made a pot of tea, when our friend and myself visited her, with some tea from this shop located in pikes market place...  it was good tea.  it was good company.  it is the stuff of good memories and foundations for amazing nows and future.

miss you - love you.

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all love,
m