hooked. that's what a friend of mine calls it. this process that i am experiencing. it's kindof exciting because it is not at all crippling. it's actually surreal. detachment from a place of health and conscience. peaceful and almost happy.
hooked. like a fish? like a junkie? no - not a junkie... there is no high - only crashes. so a fish. there is an embedding of moments, experiences, hopes, (dare i say) expectations. i am ok with expectations. i am okay with hopes, experiences and moments - and perhaps that is why i am okay with the scar that this unhooking will leave. it'll be a fond reminder of some really good (some great) moments. it'll be a reminder that i survived and grew thicker skin (and yet still choose to get back out into life and give all the love i am capable of giving...).
hooked. yeah - that's a good word. and during these nineteen days i am working on letting go. holding on to all the love, and sending so much love, but letting go. (and strange that you make it so easy)
pretend time is over - i'm ready for real.
hooked. like a fish? like a junkie? no - not a junkie... there is no high - only crashes. so a fish. there is an embedding of moments, experiences, hopes, (dare i say) expectations. i am ok with expectations. i am okay with hopes, experiences and moments - and perhaps that is why i am okay with the scar that this unhooking will leave. it'll be a fond reminder of some really good (some great) moments. it'll be a reminder that i survived and grew thicker skin (and yet still choose to get back out into life and give all the love i am capable of giving...).
hooked. yeah - that's a good word. and during these nineteen days i am working on letting go. holding on to all the love, and sending so much love, but letting go. (and strange that you make it so easy)
pretend time is over - i'm ready for real.
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letting go and being hooked, what a perfect combination! I like that.
Nick - right? sometimes we need that imagery to move on from the whole/total experience.
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